All Blogs by Cherry

my girlfriend brookie bought me a new hair to cheer me up because she knows I had a rough day. I love you <3 ALSO, I'M BRINGING THE MERMAID DRESS BACK. I DON'T CARE IF YOU GUYS CALL ME A FISH WHEN I WEAR IT!!!!!

giggling that I have gifted Bagel more times than he's gifted me, and he got that sweet paycheck and I just save my hard earned coins up from all my 4th places in arena

Like the whole thing really just shattered my self esteem. I've always struggled socially, I have really bad social anxiety and the whole thing just wrecked me, I am so terrified of reliving any of it tomorrow. https://kovaze.com/blog/95287

So many of you interacted with the mods so much and knew their personalities and whatever. They literally all blurred together as a bunch of eyeless weird names to me. One of them responded to me the one time I filed a report, and I couldn't even tell you which one it was LMAO.

I asked Bagel if he would have more time to play arenas with me now that he's been laid off from his job, and he said no!

need mindless activity for awhile

Because my fecalist is in jail for murdering my Kabbalahist

Someone I've never interacted with just mailed and asked me to be their girlfriend. I said no thank you.

I had an incident at work, going to try to type this out without crying, because I finally calmed down enough to stop. So background for anyone who doesn't know, I'm a barista, I work at a coffee shop in an office building. I'm a supervisor, and I've been there 4 and a half years. So I was supposed to work 9-530 today, that's my closing shift that I do several times a week. I started at 9, and things seemed totally normal to me. There are 2 other supervisors who were there too. At one point the male one was pouring some lemonade into a clean container, but the female one thought he was putting it in the dirty one next to it, and she went to correct him then was like oh "nevermind." And I said to him as a joke "wow she was just so eager to scold you." Then like a half hour later my boss told me she wanted to talk to me, so she takes me into the office and closes the door and says she needs to talk to me about my behavior and how my negativity makes people uncomfortable and I make people feel stupid, etc. Because apparently they were both just DISTRAUGHT by how harsh my comment regarding lemonadegate was, and like... I'm legitimately baffled. Like I DO have a lot of moments where I think I'm smarter than everyone, and I occasionally say something snarky that might come off as meaner than I intended, I have a lot of compulsive issues and that's one of the things I've been working on in therapy. But this really wasn't one of those incidents, and the whole thing left me confused. And then my boss kept going on about how apparently those two have been complaining about me a lot and they "don't feel supported by me" which I really don't understand, if anything those two are constantly off talking together and leaving me out of communications. This went on for awhile, at one point the female supervisor came in, and she was like...stating her case calmy but it was so baffling, because this woman is a proud self proclaimed bitch, and she often says things harshly to the baristas, but apparently my saying things like "wow she just loves to scold people" in a jokey tone makes her go home and cry about how mean I am. She also claimed I never say anything nice and I KNOW that's literally not true. So anyway I'm like really upset and crying at this point and I'm supposed to go back out there and work 7 more hours and run the shift, and I just couldn't do it. So I said "I am going to take a personal day, I will see you all tomorrow." Then I walked out of the office, clocked out, gathered my things, and left. I might get in trouble for leaving, like a write up for an unexcused absence, but they can't do anything about it, it would be my first one ever and I know there's a process with HR. BTW, my boss's boss was in there for all of this. He likes me and knows how hard I work. He didn't say much during the conversation at all, but I don't think he was against me in it. I'm just like so upset. I have an insane work ethic, I work so hard, I make sure everything is done perfectly before I leave when I close, I'm constantly cleaning up other people's messes, etc. I'm not saying I'm perfect, but I don't understand what my boss thought she would accomplish by having this conversation an hour into my shift (she knows I have mental health issues too). Like did she really think I would be able to smile and say I will be perfect and then calmly finish my shift? Anyway, since I'm so unsupportive, they can see what unsupportive is like when one of them has to stay and close the store today.

good night everyone!

so I can play bingo

and be responsible, or should I stay up for bingo?

sometimes I say very funny things and no one seems to notice.

Sin logged on. Did she comment on PureEssence's makeup category idea? No. But did she comment on Brookie washing her asshole? Yes. #priorities

BROOKIE RAFFLE WINNER QUEEN

is being a nice person who is loyal to my friends. So I always pick someone idk as my callout, even when there are lots of people I know I 100% would beat, because I am too nice/loyal to pick them. Then those people hurt my feelings by not picking me, and also not even playing the challenge, so I get 10th over half the cast saving 0s. On the plus side, I can now eat dinner in a timely fashion instead of being stuck in an hour long game. But I still hate you guys!

saw I missed next arena filling...but then I realized it was a NORMAL GAME so like, yay I dodged that one anyway, join me in a new filling game!

I have been rewatching my favorite show, 30Rock, and there are a handful of episodes that are removed from streaming on Peacock, but I know they exist on the internet somewhere, and I forgot where I watched them last time. Can someone help me find a place to watch them that is also safe and won't get my chromebook hacked by viruses!

and join us in arena