So, as many of you are aware I crashed out completely earlier this week, as embarrassing as that is for me to write. I was looking for any excuse at this point to crash out and saw my out with that group game. I would like to state that the group game nor anything from it was the cause of me crashing out. I'd also like to apologize formally to the entire hosting staff and any player, who was negatively impacted by my meltdown on Tuesday. That wasn't fair to any of you, and I sincerely apologize for it. I've hadn't let many people in to my personal life on here, so the vast majority weren't aware of what I've been dealing with. I had talked previously about my father's health issues and that I had dropped everything this spring to move nearly 1300 miles to move to Miami to take care of him and get him back home. I was doing this all on my own without either of my brother's help. I was still paying rent for my place back home as well as a place in Miami. I was also trying to support and be there for two young children who don't fully understand why I'm not there and they can't see me every day. Needless to say the gravity of all this had been weighing on me heavily for awhile. I was to the point where I was drinking a fifth of vodka every two days. Becoming a functioning alcoholic to deal with everything, and it came to a head this week. I was standing in the bathroom with the cold steel of a knife blade pressed to my wrists, ready to end all the pain and emotional distress I've been keeping bottled up for the past several months. And then I thought about my parents and my kids, and I just couldn't press the blade into my skin. I collapsed onto the floor and just broke down. I called my younger brother and let him know what was going on and where I was at mentally. He got ahold of our older brother and they caught the first flight they could down to Miami. They said they would make sure they got our dad and his belongings back home, and that he could stay with my older brother. They also agreed to help take the burden off of me, because they didn't realize how much I was actually dealing with. After having my father squared away, I drove to a mental health clinic and rehabilitation center and voluntarily checked myself in for five days. While there, I was able to start the detox process from all the vodka I've been consuming the last few months and receive some much needed counseling and therapy. I will continue counseling and therapy sessions and attend AA meetings down here while I finish tying up loose ends so I can also return home. They have also linked me up with a counseling center back home and provided me information on support groups I can join to keep me responsible and honest with the substance abuse. I don't fully expect anyone to have read this far. But, this was a embarrassingly low moment in my life that I deeply regret ever happened. To those who reached out to me that day, some who barely knew me I appreciated reading those messages when I got home from the clinic today. I'm not sure how much I will be around the next week or two as I tie up all my loose ends in Miami and try to get my life back on track once I return home, but I did just want to provide an update and explanation for anyone who was concerned or wondering.

After the actions that have transpired today in Skinnisha Survivor by certain players and some hosts, mainly the fact they tolerated a player bringing my children into a fight in the game and wouldn't try and understand what I had to say. Coupled with other facts in my real life, I have decided that life isn't worth living anymore. And I'm frankly, just not going to live in it anymore. To the few people who I got to know fairly well and make friends with, I thank you for your kinship and wish you all the best.

Jaded for the gift <3 Loves you so much! Thanks for being my Kov-husband's bff

I'd love to get my 10th gift

That forever piss me off to where i swear i'd never return.. (and return every few months..) Holey Chain-pop Balloons (moreso when it had the lag)

JTee 10th

For a 100% honest opinion MrsChloeKayCecci - we had some issues in the past, but I live for your documented games. I still don’t understand how you get that info out so fast! But I appreciate everything you do to make it happen! venharim - We have played some Arenas together. I genuinely don’t know you that well. But your a great player and I’d love to get to know you better Cherry - I’m so glad I gave you a fresh chance on here. I know we had some issues previous but after getting to know you better I’m so glad to know you. You’re a very kind hearted person and I admire that so much brookie - Honeslty, one of my favorite people on this entire website. We just vibed from day 1 and you will always be my Kovaze wifey ❤️ bim - I honestly don’t know that much about you. In sorry for that! I enjoy reading your blogs and just know you have a in me anytime you need it YanderTron21 - another one I don’t know a whole lot about. I know you’re a huge wrestling fan and as a fellow wrestling fan I’d talk to you about it anytime you wanted

I’m so thankful for this website. Like 96% of it is so positive and uplifting and it’s just great to see. Even if I flop in a game I love lifting others up and seeing them succeed at my expense. It’s all about positivity and I really do love so many of you

About 2 months ago my father blacked out while driving and took out three vehicles in a parking lot. He's lost nearly 40 pounds since the beginning of April without trying and can't lift his arms at all. We've been to several doctor's to try and figure out what's causing everything. Wednesday we got the results back from the oncologist and ruled out a thyroid issue and cancer, thankfully. But, the big scary possible diagnosis from his neurologist is still on the table - which is ALS. This man has been my hero my entire life and I always looked at him as a superhero. To see him struggle to do basic tasks is so hard for me. My brothers are not responsible or even reliable, so I'm having to deal with everything on my own and ensure he's getting to all his appointments since he's not longer able to drive. I put on this brave front in order to deal with the tasks at hand and put my feelings and emotions on the backburner, because I have to. But, I've hit the bottle quite a bit tonight and I'm just not in a good place at all. I'm worried for my Dad and even more scared of losing him.

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Sin Would there be a way to make the separation between the bottom middle ingredient and the submit button a little larger? The amount of times I've unclicked an ingredient trying to submit a burger is too high to count.

I tried the JTee strat for Starfall I proceeded to score 506 Dream then proceeded to bully me because of it

In my account at all times, in case I want to buy something or gift something out of shops to someone. Every Monday I deposit anything over 1000 Koinz in my bank. June 1st I am on pace to make my largest weekly deposit of nearly 5k Koinz. Have I arrived?

If you click Edit Friends on your profile and scroll to the bottom of the page you can see who has added you as friend, that you don't have added.

First of all, I can’t explain how embarrassed I am about this. I have been speaking to a friend and I do think I should come clean. I do want to start by saying how sorry I genuinely am. So everything I’ve said about myself on this website is true. My name is David, I am 37, I do have children and everything else I’ve mentioned is true. I haven’t been entirely myself though. The pictures I have posted haven’t been of me. I posted pictures of someone else. Back in the day on Tengaged I would get severely bullied for being overweight & it made me feel miserable. I didn’t want that to happen anymore, so I started using pictures of my friend (I did have permission before you ask). I know it’s wrong, I’m fully aware of it and I feel ashamed and embarrassed but I can’t change it now. I genuinely have developed a hard shell in real life and don't let what others feel or say about me affect myself or my self worth. But, online for whatever reason I've never been able to bring that same demeanor. Words hurt. People can be absolutely vicious behind a screen. And, I just didn't want to deal with that all over again. I am a normal guy, who just so happens to be very self conscious of his weight. Unfortunately I’m also a people pleaser and like to be liked, and this wasn’t with malicious intent. I shouldn’t have done what I did, but everything else you’ve come to know about me is true & I’m sorry if I disappointed any of my old friends or people I’ve gotten to know more recently and hope the community will give me a chance to stay and be myself.

Can't wait to Train on Burgers

There are only 20 combos for Codebreaker that are 100% correct. This is based on 400 times playing Codebreaker.

To have a good time with the boys and to get my mind off of real life shit. I'm standing in line at the bar to get some beer, and here comes my ex (who I didn't know was there) and just killed the entire vibe for the night. Why does this shit happen to me?

An Endurance style Arena, but your points were just your cumulative Comp scores, instead of arbitrary numbers based on your placement in each round?

Crystal Cox, baby