All Blogs by Nick

Was walking out into a freezing cold winter wonderland 😭. Made it to the gym though. Will was strong, regret is high. Will update my PYN when I get home btw. (We all know my phone's autocorrect is abysmal and I cannot be trusted to write novels on it 🫠)

For my opinion of you. I've been here for about a month now, and I've certainly formed some 👀. CarltonRS - Our first interaction was in that dreadful first Outcasted of mine where I had no idea what I was doing. I really thought I was just being loyal to the original alliance I had by voting you. But clearly I was tricked 😅. But then we played Royale together and were put together as allies. And I learned how sweet and fiercely protective you are. You will go to war for your friends and that is a quality I so admire. You are also one of the best competition scorers on the site. So that's always something I look up to and aspire towards. The more I learn about you and get to know you, the more I like you! Plus I remember you fondly from TG, so that's a bonus! Tide - Wolfy! My 3am Arena buddy. I enjoy talking to you a lot. We have a very similar sense of humour. Whether I am wasted and can barely type, or benchpressing to SpongeBob The Musical. Always love seeing your avi when I regretfully press the "Enroll" button! Hwest14 - Houston, I haven't gotten to know you much on this site. I assume you don't rmemeber me tbh. But back in the TG days, we played a lot of games together. I always remember you being nothing but delightful! I assume nothing has changed until given a reason otherwise 🤭. OhEMGee - I only know you through that Outcasted we recently did together. My first impression was that you were a lot of chaotic energy! Although we weren't aligned, I respect the hell out of the way you played. You were loyal to who you were loyal to, and even sacrificed your placement for someone with less experience on the site. A class act for sure 👌. Cray - We always immediately go to Discord when we are in a game together and pick up like nothing happened. Even if we had to take eachother out in the previous game. I find that to be such a refreshing quality. You don't hold a grudge, you don't take anything personally, you just seem like a chill dude. Then we got to Race together today, and once again you were an absolute benevolent partner. Very forgiving for when I nuked us and very communicative throughout. Looking forward to more games together! MochaLatte – We met in my first Royale game, and you didn’t murder me. So we were off to a good start! We have been in a few games since then and you have been nothing but lovely, and talkative. I appreciate that because I often feel like I am talking to myself in these games! Definitely someone that I am happy to see when I join a game. SirVivor – Alex! You and I go way waaaay back to when we were both children on TG. You are one of the few I have kept in touch with. We became very close during my like second return after a long break from the site. You probably backstabbed me like 5 different times, but I still came back for more! You are also very active on my IG stories (especially the thirst traps :P), so I feel connected through that despite being a continent apart. Hopefully we can hang out next time you find yourself in Toronto! VenusVafa – I actually only saw you for the first time a few days ago in Arena. I mentioned that the real Venus Vafa was gonna be at my bar on Wednesday, but I guess you didn’t see that comment. Your scores were usually pretty high up, so that is something I am aspiring to be. Getting there slowly but surely! My DMs are always open if you wanna chat though 😊 . YanderTron21 – One of the sweetest and most thoughtful guys on both this site and TG. I sometimes wake up after 3 hours of sleep, hating the world, and first thing I see is a mail or a message from you wishing me a nice day. I sometimes am too asleep to respond, but know that it is such a nice small gesture that does not go unnoticed! I enjoy all of our chats and you just seem like a really cool and not at all judgemental person. ItsAModernLife – Lol at the dad joke, good start! I love a dad joke :D. You seem like one of the most genuinely helpful people on this site. You would make an incredible ambassador. You take time out of your day to help acclimatize the newer people to the site. You are always there whenever someone has an inquiry. You also go HARD for your friends, and I love that. Everytime KaliMinaj was up in Celebrities you were the most vocal cheerleader for her. I love to see so much support on a website designed to test our loyalty. Keep up the great work, it is noticed and appreciated! Tisha – My Boney Queen! I think your skinny skeleton body bit is one of the most enjoyable branding on the website. The penalty for my tribe was so high in Outcasted the other day and I told them to get off the Tisha diet and EAT SOMETHING. They did not listen, but we merged so it is fine. I also love the relationship between you and Jaded (not sure if it is real and romantic or not, but cute nonetheless). I enjoyed working with you in Royale. It was a wild ride! One minute we are having small talk, enjoying the peace. The next you are asking me to take someone out with you and going full commander! We love a cadaver that can do both! JessieJedi – My fellow Newfie queen! Talking to you is like talking to home. It always brings back nostalgic memories! So so soooo looking forward to your new Newfoundland inspired line of designs! You are such a sweetheart and I love seeing you in games. I know that we are gonna click immediately. Also love that you are a cat mom, you understand hat it is to have a fur baby that is your whole world! Looking forward to getting to know you even more <3. Glitter – The diva who is here to make life long friends! Everytme we have ever joined a game together, we end up working together in some regard. We just magnetize that way. That one time I took you out at F5 and you were so gagged… could never do that again tbh. I am semi-retired from Frenzy/Hysteria now, so I don’t see you very often. But when I do on the blogs page, those memories come flooding back! Luna – My second friend on this website! When MessyJ told me about you, I really thought you guys were in a committed heterosexual relationship. I even made that silly little video singing “your song” to you guys for Valentines Day. But as he started talking passionately about Drag Race, I think I put 2 and 2 together :P. Fiercely loyal, protective, and always meaning well. Diva with a heart of gold truly. Also enjoyed our talks about musical theatre, where you grew up, etc. I also like when you get spicy though, that may be my favourite Luna! @MessyJ – It is like you and Luna coordinated this! One of the easiest people to talk to and befriend. That explains why you were my absolute first new friend on this site! I always enjoy our conversations, whether they be paragraphs over Discord, or quick PMs in a game. Your energy is palpable through a screen, and that is a rare quality to have. You were so sweet to notice my 100th game and jump into action to do something with it. That was my favourite game I have ever played on the site, by far. And then yesterday, we got my first Finals in Race together! US?! The nuke squad! I have so much more to write, and I am sure even more than that in a month’s time. But it is almost 6am, and I have a lot more names. So lets break it off here! Koolness234 – I remember you from TG, more importantly I remember liking you on TG! My first experience with you on this site was parasocially through your Celebrities game. I enjoyed watching your camp, your passion, and your endless collection of Esparanzas! You are an icon, a legend, and I would love to get to know you more now that we are both adults with fully formed frontal lobes! Katheryn – The first time I heard of you was when I was directed to your Match3 help guide blog. First of all, THANK YOU. It 100% raised my score. But also, you are so sweet for that. We then played Outcasted together, and I learned just how sweet and unproblematic you are. It sucks that you had to be the fallout for your group of 3. I honestly would have sheeped you guys til the end, because I like you all. But the numbers weren’t there. But you took it like the classy lady that you are. No cussing, no vendetta, just an understanding that it is a game. You seem to be one of the most widely beloved players on this site. Add me to that fanbase! Jaded – “Jared stop being a duche, I told you it was not letting me play the competition, I know how this works, I’m new, not stupid.” THIS is my favourite Kovaze memory. That noob ate you UP! I really enjoyed you when we were children on TG. But now you are probably one of my favourite figures on this site. You are notorious for having a big heart, joining races, and yelling at those who nuke you. What a legacy! Honestly though, chatting with you is always something truly beautiful and you make the website a much better and more enjoyable place to be. KBeastW – I do remember you from TG, but I can’t remember specific details aside from I liked you. Then you were in my first game on this site, which was hilarious because I could not figure out how to PM people back. But you had my back anyways. TG trauma bonds transcend communication! You seem like you’ve grown into a lovely person and I look forward to getting to know you again. Yawnha - *Yawns like Yawnha* lives on in my brain it seems! Good to see you in this new format haha. I don’t think we have interacted at all on here. But I would like to! You were a staple on the Blogs page back on TG and I always enjoyed reading them. We were such silly children, thank god adulthood has treated us well! Gabs – We started off on a bad foot on this site, with you relentlessly hunting me down in my first Royale. Then I got daddy Lawrence to save me from the big scary murderer, Gabs! You know what happened from there. Then we reconnected in my second Royale, this time we were aligned. Thank God! You do love you some bloodshed haha. But you are also really sweet, and trustworthy, and I enjoyed our chats. LMNOP – My musical theatre diva! We don’t talk a whole lot, but when we do I feel an instant kinship with you. It is hard to find someone who appreciates the very thing I have based my life around on here! You joined my 100th game and it was absolutely my favourite game ever. The best vibes, the best people (including you), and I won (kate). But if you ever wanna chat more, my discord is in my profile, or my mails are always open (much worse at keeping up with those). Cristi – Icon, legend, beauty pussy! Omg I love playing Royale with you my Canary Island queen. I would suicide to you in a heartbeat upon your command. Maybe it is the gay man in me just stanning an obvious diva. But I cannot help it, it is just nature! I loved getting to know you a bit more between all of the bloodshed. You were super robbed in that game, but you know that. Looking forward to many more games together! NicoRobin – I can’t apologize enough for the actions of drunk Nick voting you out of Outcasted. I will be sheeping you in every game going forward. I believe it to be a privilege to converse with you. You are such an enigma on this site. You will type a full-ass novel that no one but yourself appreciates, and I relate to that so hard. You are truly one of a kind and NEVER change for anybody. You are also fierce and unafraid to stand up for yourself when you feel attacked. You are so incredibly your unique self and such an important part of the Kovaze community. With the cuntiest Esparanzas and beautiful original designs. Ethan – I actually only know you from the Blogs page. But I find you very entertaining and occasionally insightful. I can’t fully get a read on when you are being camp and not, but I don’t feel like I need to. I am entertained either way! Were you on TG? The OC sweater has me wondering. Did we know each other? Let me know! ToriMarie – Montana freaking (redacted). I was so excited to see you on here! I don’t think it was any secret that I had a little cyber crush on you when we were kids haha. But we have watched each other grow throughout the years through IG. You have always just been such a chill and effortlessly charismatic person. An icon on TG and underrated on here. I always love seeing your life updates, and I of course love the rare times we are in games together on here. All the love <3 . RobbieRIOT – I’m not sure why, but you give the most grounded vibes I have seen on this site. I see you as entirely unflappable. I also enjoyed reading your thoughts about me and I felt so seen. You are always fantastic energy in games, and you don’t allow me to be talking to myself for too long. Another person whose scores I am aspiring up to! Also very helpful when someone has inquiries they want answered. Your energy feels integral to the synergy of the site. Sorry if I am placing a lot on you, but that’s my opinion as it stands today.

A self-tape for a show. And the prompt is to improv 2 scenarios. Both of which I am fighting for my life while hanging onto a piece of debris in the middle of the ocean 🚢... my neighbour is FOR SURE gonna call 911 because of how many times I'm about to scream for help 😭

It is for the standard British accent. And I am famously terrible at accents. So I am a little nervous 😅

Idk how ya'll go to the gym during the day. I will see you tonight for my 3am workout/Arena sesh Tide 💕

I need to shower and go to the gym (In the daylight?!)

And with my first friend on the site nonetheless. That's truly something beautiful @MessyJ 💕

https://kovaze.com/blog/90835 It got steamy 🤭

I will reveal a Tengager I have met irl. And the juicy details that go with the meeting! (It'll get steamy around 400-500 😏) 100 - Phenomanimal: The year was 2016, I was on tour in Toronto with a musical that I was doing. I had a lot of down time and this also happened to coincide with Toronto Pride. It was extremely overwhelming coming from the much smaller city of Winnipeg. The rest of my cast got up at the ass crack of dawn to see Justin Trudeau in the parade. I got up slightly later to commute from Etobicoke (where our Airbnb was) to Yonge-Dundas Square (think miniature Times Square) where I was meeting Gaston for lunch. MY GOD the square was packed! But he found us a place where we could eat and have some good conversation about the site, about life, about anything really! Very lovely man. Rupaul was the guest speaker at the square that day and he was on his soapbox, microphone in hand, spewing his hot take that young people owe sex to older people for paving the way. (This was not a joke). Weird guy. Anyways, beautiful memory and a great start! He was #1 chronologically as well. 200 - Joee323(sp?): The year was 2022. I was on a trip to Edinburgh and had a few days in London as well. Joe and I were following eachother on Instagram (and still are) and I was posting about my trip. He suggested that we meet up for coffee and a chat, which I was more than happy to do. London was fucking DRAINING. No one told me that you needed a separate SIM card because literally nowhere has wifi. If you don't know, dear reader, now you know. Anyways, we went to a cafè that he suggested nearby where I was staying (by King's Cross Station). We talked all about my trip, tengaged, his life there, recommendations he had during my short visit. All over one of the worst cappuccinos I have ever had 😅. I had a full day ahead, so we left it there. Sorry if you live in London. For the way that I am trashing it, AND because you have to live in that abysmal glorified rain gutter 😘. 300 - Bamold1999 ( NaughtyNacho ): The year was 2024, and it was during Pride. Less of an interesting story. But perhaps it is more because it is a well-known face on here and on TG. I was bartending a random day shift. It was a very very dead day. And there was Tylor and a random boy sitting in the absolute corner far away from my bar. I didn't recognize him because I barely saw any pics of him on TG and it had been many years. But everytime he came up to the bar for a drink, I felt his eyes burning into my soul! Not abnormal for a gay boy during pride. They're like cats in heat! But this was different. Anyways, I went on with my day and pushed it to the side. When I got off work I had a instagram message in my message requests. And it was Tylor asking if I was his bartender. He had to ask around to see if I lived in Toronto before sending the message 😅. He lived just outside of Toronto, and he has temporarily moved out West. But he'll be back in the summer and maybe we can hang out for real! 400 - ImThtAwesome: Okay now we get a little more salacious. Once again, the year was 2016 and I was touring. Isaiah lived in a small city outside of Toronto and took the train to come see my matinee. He expressed his love for the show, and since he came all that way I decided I should spend the day with him. He was pretty hated on TG, but that was his online persona. He was actually a really nice guy and super shy. We spent the day doing pride stuff and exploring Toronto. In the evening we decided to meet up with another Tengager. They will be revealed if this blog reaches 500 👀. This person brought 2 of their friends as well. The 5 of us were drinking in a parking lot. 500 and I were talking and their friend took an interest in Isaiah. Isaiah was clearly uncomfortable as this guy was pretty wasted and not taking the hint that he wasn't interested. I told 500 that we had to go, because I wanted to get Isaiah safely out of that situation. I couldn't just stand around and watch it. Again, I was staying in Etobicoke, and at this point Isaiah missed his last train home until the station opened back up at like 6am. It was currently around 2am I believe. So we headed back to Etobicoke, where my cast was staying. Figured we could stay warm til the station opened. Little did I know, I was locked out of my place because they all assumed I'd be out all night. So Etobicoke is not big city vibes like Toronto proper is. We were both pretty drunk still. We sat on a random park bench, and he was cold, so I brought him into a snuggle for warmth. Then he started looking at me with lustful eyes, and again I was pretty drunk. So I kissed him. We made out on the bench for a while and then he asked if he could 👅🍆. So we went into the bushes, and he got to work. After we were finished we went to a Tim Hortons nearby my Airbnb. Got a beverage (there was no food yet), and waited until the trains were running again. I made sure he got to his train safely. It was about 7am by the time I got back to my airbnb. I told my cast nothing of this night 😂. Needless to say, I was DEAD for the show that day. We kept in touch for a while after, but I think he may have deleted his IG. So that's that I suppose! 500 - Etienne: We are still in the year 2016. I am freshly single from a 2 year relationship, and I am touring across the country. One of the strains of this fully monogamous relationship was that we went 3 months without doing it. He didn't see a problem with that. So I am a little backed up this tour 🥴. Now, Etienne and I have lightly flirted over TG, Snapchat, Skype for years. Ramped up to REAL flirting since I became single. So this has been building up, in my mind at least. Let's fast forward to the parking lot. Him and I were discussing hanging out the next day, because I wanted to get Isaiah home, and also I wanted to get home myself at some point, and my ability to do so was also impacted by the subway being open. After all the events of the Isaiah story, I crashed in my bed and woke up late, did my warm ups, and rushed out the door to make it for our evening call time. After the show, Etienne and I grabbed a drink in The Gay Village (streets are closed to vehicles during Pride week). We got wasted, I told him his friend from the other night was an asshole, he agreed. We moved past it and talked, drank, and were merry. Once again, in true Etienne fashion, he brought more outside booze for us to drink when the clubs were closed. We stayed up til the sun came up just talking, drinking, and occasionally making out. Once the sun did come up, he said that he really wanted me to #@$% him. And that's really all I wanted in that moment. So, this man was staying at Steamworks (the bath house), in a room he rented for the evening. He was planning on going back to Montreal the night before. But he wanted to stay, so he apparently moved all his shit into a rented room at this bath house. Well, I had never been to a bath house, and the idea scared and thrilled me. So I said fuck it (and him). I paid my towel fee to get in, we raced past many lustful eyes, avoiding all other gazes. Finally we made it to his room. There was a red light in the room that really made everything that much hotter. We went at it for hours, cuddled a little bit, and then I said goodbye and went home. This was the last time I ever saw him. I truly don't remember if he had an IG. If he did, it is deleted now. 600 - Andalarew(?): At least I think that was his username? Name is Andrew, short, Italian, hung out with NicoleF and The Hunties? Anyways. I was at a gay bar in The Village, and this short Italian man comes up to me and asks me if my name was Nick. I was like... yes? Mind you, everyone knows of me, because I was a bartender at the biggest gay club in Toronto. He is like "like RawrItsNick"? I was like... OH MY GOD. He introduced himself, I honestly didn't even know he was Canadian, but I definitely rememebered him! I added him on Instagram, and I see him every week now as he is part of the Gay Dodgeball League that plagues my bar every Monday night after their games are finished.

🫠

As a comp. Whose avatars would you put in there? 👀

And I will serenade you 🎤 (Sending til the blog expires)

First music rehearsal for the new contract. I love TYA (Theatre for Young Audiences) and the music ALWAYS slaps harder than it should 🙌

Of Pizza Gate and the Epstein files

Well done @FrostBite , Kovaze's Chris Hansen

A lot of prominent pedos were in The OC or on OC calls. And I was recruited to the OC shortly after making my first vlog on the site... Just saying.

For a surprise 👀

And your discord if I don't have it already, and I will sing you a song 🎶

What are our favourite WingStop flavours?

Your agent submits you for some really shitty scripts. The casting director wants to see you for a self-tape. They ask for a lot in this tape. A lot of labour is going into this role you don't fit in a movie you never want to be in... but you do it anyways to make her happy. And tonight is one of those nights 🫠