Honestly I watched Emiru's full video (TW:SA)

It's so incredibly sad and I relate deeply to her especially about finding it hard to talk about, there was a friend of mine when I was 15 ( we were friends since we were 11 and met when we went up to high school since we came from different schools ) who used to do sexual things to me without my permission and I used to always make excuses because he was a very lonely person with social issues. He used to do things like pulling my clothes down in front of people but he played it off as a " joke " and I used to think it was a joke and touch me in inappropriate places in front of others as a " joke " and I just saw it as normal as people including my friends used to laugh when he did it so I saw it as normal behaviour. When I was 15 almost 16 he attempted to R word me in the school changing rooms I will not go into detail as it's extremely traumatising for me to remember. Honestly I've always been ashamed to talk about this and have NEVER talked about it in my real life as I don't want it to ruin my career at all or how people see me in general. I just hope people know, others will listen if you need a safe space online and feel you can't talk about things you've been through in person