IDK how I’m doing this

I’m just here to vent a little bit (So if you don’t wanna hear personal stuff then please ignore) Ever since my dad has been in jail/prison (another long story, gonna shorten it racist cops and an unfair judge can eat it, my dad is innocent and they let a guy free after he attacked my dad, on my dads property, and the guy failed miserably btw -.-) I have been helping my family to the best of my abilities but every day I just feel so tired and unmotivated. But I made a promise to my dad. It has been stressful, it has been tiring, I gave up my work hours/days , and put a pause on moving, to help my mom and my siblings. But especially my mom and my baby brother. (The only escape I have is Kovaze and I enjoy rekindling with old friends and meeting new friends , along with familiar people.) Now since the holidays is now coming close my mom and dad made a plan for me to take my dads card and buy some gifts, so this morning my dad finally called me and I managed to make a list (so I’m supposed to get his card from my mom) but before the called end he said he loved me, my dad never said that to me (maybe because I’m grown, maybe because we see each other everyday but not at the moment) after that now I feel like I should be in tears rn because the last time he said that is when the last time I saw him. So I’m gonna continue to and get through this holiday and wish everyone a happy holiday.