I Used to Be

An Arena IT GIRL you could see me in that lobby and know I was making it to the finals but all of a sudden I can't even get to the final 3 if my life depended on it. Like...is this how it feels to be a chop ho? I'm really internalizing this as a personal failure I should have never taken a Kovaze break to go touch grass. I MADE A MISTAKE! This must be how desh feels all the time.