FYI - I forgive the girl from last game that voted me out. She apologized & she is very sweet. It’s just a game, so we’re good! She was so kind & she put a smile on my face ☺️

What’s love got to do with it?what’s love but a second-hand emotion?

Mighty I had no problem with you until you randomly called me out in a game. For no reason. I didn’t even do anything to you if you just like to call me out and say my game play was bad. It’s not an annoying little sister role like you claim it to be. We didn’t even talk at all and you called me out in the public chat. A sister role is not what I claim that. I don’t really have any words for you nor do I wanna continue talking to you however we have a game to play in the game will be played. I have no words and I’m sorry that you have been through a lot however when I tell people is you take your circumstances and you become a survivor of it and not just live in it and take it out on others. I believe it will turn around for you and I hope it will.

I was so in love with that person that I was willing to put up with whatever for true love. I made a mistake. The family was so insane. It wouldn’t even be appropriate for me to publicly say the staff they did, but trust me it wasn’t good. I ended with my heart broken after all that, just because “their family hated me.” That was the reason they broke up with me. Spring 2024 had the highest of highs but very low lows as well. The entire Summer that year I was depressed. It was my last Summer as a camp counselor. I was missing so many days of work & was so inconsistent. They were nice about it. But I just am not reliable to keep a job anymore. It’s sad. But that’s ok, I tried. 3 years I was a Summer camp counselor. It was nice. Now I’m hoping to be a stay-at-home housewife cause that’s something I think I would enjoy in life & have great success at. It’s always been my dream to be a stay-at-home mom. Because of my biological dysfunctions, I don’t know if I’ll be able to have biological kids, but I definitely wanna be a housewife & cook, clean, & do laundry for someone. But yeah

Mighty why would u put up with their fam acting like like that?

I miss the good old days. My mental health was so better way back in my childhood days & even early adult such as 2020, 2021, 2022, & part of 2023. It was in Fall 2023 that I started noticing I’m very depressed. That’s when things took a significant turn for the worse with my mental health & well-being. I still had mint previous psychiatrist at that point. She was a nice lady. Me & my Mom upset her tho cause we were cooperating with my meds. Anyway, yeah. Things got bad then. Throughout the winter that year I was depressed, & then a LOT happened in Spring 2024. I don’t know if I have the time or energy for that story today, but I’m telling ya, it’s a long one. So much happened. That’s arguably the most memorable season of my life. Spring 2024, you know? That’s when I fell in love with my first ex. Their family was psychotic & abusive to me. It was awful. The entire experience left a lot of trauma on Nikola. It really did. The rest of that year was what it was. Then 2025 had its ups & downs with my bipolar as well. Some good months, some awful ones, some mixed. A lot happened & I’ll get to that story at some point as well. Give me time

My ex was a whole another story. I ain’t going to get into the details about that until I get to know someone better, but they were awful to me & even deceived by parents. It was very upsetting. I was left heartbroken, traumatized, anxious, upset, hopeless, & lost. So yeah, that’s what my ex did in February. They’re mentally not ok. For the things they say & do & everything, it’s awful. I keep trusting people I shouldn’t trust. I don’t see the red flags because of my autism. Same thing on this game! I trust people too easily! I will say, that one guy that I thought would nominate me with HOH first time he got the chance, he actually didn’t! It’s almost like your friends are your enemies & your enemies are not your enemies? If that makes sense. It’s like he found someone else to have a disagreement with & nominate with HOH instead of me. So I was happy with him today. But not those two girls from last game. They hurt me bad

I’ve got some mental health problems, you know? I get so attached & then hurt by these characters without even knowing what they actually look like in real life. It’s probably cause of my autism & not having besties in real life. Anything feels like hope. Even building a friendship with a character in a game feels so genuine & real. And then they hurt me. It sucks. It is what it is I suppose. I have to face reality. Most people will not be nice to me. I will continue to get betrayed in games by people I say are my final 2 alliance & wanna be close friends with them. It happened in December/January then I took a break from this site to try to find friends in person & that went even worse. I am going through trauma from my ex as well. And one group of people I met at a social group, the one invited me to her house with all her friends. The host was nice but the friends were all catty & mean so I left to go home quickly after I arrived. My Mom said, “what’s wrong?” I was visibly upset. My Winter 2026 was never the same ever since that upset. I removed myself from that group chat & don’t communicate with those people anymore. They were not nice at all. Then I had other bad experiences in February. But it is what it is

what's up y'all!

Thank you. I wish Alyssa would forgive me for being annoying. I am willing to forgive her for calling me names

Let it out

This game is like my venting outlet

Wassup all I wanna do is party on u

I have no friends. No best friends anyway. Just a few friends at a distance

There’s just no kind, caring, genuine people out there in the world anymore, except my Mom & a few others that are very special to me

I got betrayed badly in the last game 💔

I’m not feeling well

She bullied her annoying little sister & then blocked her. Wow. Interesting would be an understatement for sure

Alyssa doesn’t like having an annoying little sister. That’s all I am lol

The last game I was in made me CRABBY. And I’m a bipolar girl so when the crabby side is out, we’re in for a wild ride! 🦀