I CHOKED.

I honestly try to be loyal and honest with people when i agree to work with them in games but i am always, always the first person they turn on when the chance comes. I try as much as i am socially able to be part of "groups" and create myself allies but 95% of people are fake. It's not a nice experience and it absolutely starts to feel personal when you're apparently dispensable over and over again. Don't worry, before you all come at me, i know, it's a gaming website- but i don't think it's wrong to want to meet genuine and respectful people. Too many of you act in a way you would never in day to day life; quite hard for neurodiverse people to get their head around that. Perhaps, i shall hang about and do some daily spins but stay out of games; i don't want to win enough to hurt others or keep being used as a scapegoat.

@sexytex @smurf Is more likely to have sent me out to share a decoy vote just to use it against me and stab me in the back?

Even if I'm not picked (if I can get a ticket in time etc.) This current random system seems stuck on the same people 😂 3/4 times is actually ludicrous with over 200 users (maybe 300+)

Buying a ticket in advance is totally pointless as some people would have just bought it to be picked not because they had intention to play. It's supposed to be random but it's full of extremely popular people. Production, sigh.

Being 5am in the UK so I don't even know if I got my ticket again in time