Of people who I have not spoken to or seen in almost a decade basically telling me I'm rude and conceited Is this a sign?

I must ask: why?

That I usually ever get compliments in the context of someone wanting to either exploit or take advantage of me in some capacity, you can understand why I get very apprehensive over compliments

That I’m supposed to continue living life, having aspirations, and planning for the future given the everything that’s been happening politically, environmentally, and economically? And I’m not even supposed to contemplate killing myself during this? Fuck you

Is a surprisingly evil city yet no one really talks about it

In the bathroom for the better part of at least an hour now through some combination of shitting, scrolling on his phone, showering, then going back to shitting and scrolling on his phone I just want to brush my teeth