date with a girl

i’m going on a date tonight. after my blog about how i feel on that aspect and such and receiving words of encouragement from plenty of you, i decided that it was time for me to put myself out there again and step into the dating scene. because the past is the past and the present is now and it’s up to me to make the most out if it for myself. however.. i’m going on a date with a woman. i’m very nervous for this, as i’ve never done anything so publically in an i guess you could say romantic way with another woman. i’m bisexual, maybe even pansexual, i don’t know and who cares anyways because labels are not important! but i’m not out in real life at all. like sure, i’ve kissed girls when going to the clubs and such but nobody in my inner circle really knows that i also have romantic interest in women.. so i guess this date is sort of my coming out? i have a very loving and supporting group of people around me in my personal life so i’m sure it isn’t an issue, i think for me it’s just.. scary? i always pictured life to be livinv with a man, having kids that way and such. being a mom is literally my biggest dream and only goal in life, and it will work differently being with a woman of course. not that that’s bad! just not what i’ve always envisioned life to be like. so yes, i’m really excited but also nervous about the date but honestly, even if it doesn’t lead anywhere i improved (?) myself in two ways with 1 being open to those things again and putting myself out there and 2 my lwk coming out.