Tengaged Really Sucked

I debated posting this for almost two weeks after Mittens made his blog because I think part of me already knew none of it was normal, I just shoved it to the back of my brain and wasn’t really ready to talk about it. Back then I thought the attention made me important. I was a fat kid in high school with awful self esteem, and grown adults online knew exactly how to make me feel special. Gifts, favoritism, weird comments, secretive behavior, all of it felt validating at the time. Looking back now it’s just uncomfortable. And yes, zakisaboss was absolutely into femboy Kentuckyy. He begged me not to tell people and gifted me over it. I was never close to Jenzie, but after I got gifted I would get passive comments or blogs negged, and he would tell me things about their relationship that I probably never should have been involved in as a teenager. Then after they broke up, the comments and behavior toward me got even more sexual and inappropriate. At the time I loved feeling chosen because I wanted validation so badly. Now I just look back and think it’s weird that grown adults were treating a teenager like that online in the first place. I don’t even know why I’m posting this now besides the fact that reading that blog made me realize how normalized this stuff felt back then. Maybe I just want people with low self esteem to understand that attention from internet losers is not the same thing as genuine care or worth, especially younger people.