im gay bc im gay if that makes any sense

Will ever have new designs? I need to spend my token.

ELIMINATION ‼️🔥 https://www.kovaze.com/blog/94026

and seeing glaceon killing 11 people last night.. hello?! thanks king for not killing me ig LMAOO <33 lyy

He wants to see all the things we have seen but requires our eyes to do it. He places them into his own eye sockets leaving us with nothing. We are blinded to the world while he has visions of our past, present, and even future. People look at him and say they swear his eyes were a different color before. He just stares and smiles with his new eyes.

add me: booksandteacups

Gonna do 3 cards on my phone on my bus ride!

https://www.kovaze.com/shopping/14

There will be a new pandemic that will make COVID-19 look like a picnic, and no one will be spared. The aliens spoke to a man and told him. They kept whispering the words into his mind. The amount of human suffering will be terrifying and heartbreaking, but nothing can be done to stop it. When sickness truly wants to inhabit the human body more than anything, it will do just that.

i’ll expose some kovaze gossip. if you have any hot piping tea that needs to be spilled, mail me or dm me on discord. DISCLAIMER: some things are rumours going around and not confirmed to be actually true. 50 - akshar received shirtless pictures from nick in return for saving nick in arena golden star 100 - messyj is rumoured to be jessym from tengaged 150 - naughtynacho is allegedly playing both sides within kliques 200 - sin may have rigged royale against envious that one time they got into drama on the blogs page 250 - jaded and tisha have a thing going on 300 - mario23 slides into a lot of women’s dms 350 - sweetheart is cheesecake 400 - i don’t wanna tag because i’m scared.. but some very popular, loved users here are actually maga 450 - melanie and itsamodernlife have a thing going on

emmett4 - 0/10 idk you and you didnt so im assuming bad attitude mp231 - 8/10 good guy fiji - 10/10 Big diva energy Nick - 9/10 -1 for being kind of a manwhore Tisha 9/10 -1 for being a bitch that one time BigBryy99 7/10 waiting for your eventual crash out Desh 8/10 -2 for putting a chokehold on your fellow DNTM sistas Laura 9/10 good latina gyal manon 9/10 -1 for being friends with that ratchet girl idol malibu 10/10 real biancabae 6/10 i need to get to know you more ! cray 8/10 1 for having a hot avi DK 5/10 lets beef woofums jake - 8/10 cute girl and cute boy! coldreactor 7/10 -3 for being friends with a demon marieeve 6/10 i see you get into drama miss diva itsamodernlife 4/10 shady biminibonboulash 10/10 cute kawaii personafied misschloekay 5/10 -5 for saying my username was trash idol - 0.1/10 i admire ur humliation ritual in attempting to read me pureessence 10/10 mother sister aunt grandma, whoever u wanna be ur that girl hausofkimchi 8/10 cutie i see around, but need to talk more to <433

& I'll rank your threat level from 1-10 based off my perception!! (1 being weakest, 10 being strongest) hausofkimchi - 9 af MissChloeKay - 5 Woofums - 2 MessyJ - depends on the day - 7 biancabae - 3 MarieEve - 7 Nick - 5 Luxray - 7 Graf - 6 jadennator1 - 7 CarltonRS - 10 af Nora - 4 bunny - 9 <3 Laura - 7 Rain - 8! KaliMinaj - 8 :D AngieKStan - 8!!! Glitter - 5 :* Emmett4 - 4 hehe Medusaluh - 9 as fuck DK - 9! Cray - 8 <3 BIGBRYY99 - 5 itsamodernlife - 9 af biminibonboulash - hmmmm hard to tell but due to the unknown, a 6 katheryn - 8.5 almost 9!!!! I def can't beat you one on one dailyicon - 3 I'm sorry Idol - 7 <3 Melanie - 8/9!!!!

a little nervous but excited to enter a new decade of life :)

Remember and appreciate the Fam letting me do nothing in my first Royale and then taking like a fat paycheck by getting 12th. I think I maybe got like one item all game, the just let me sit there and then someone outside of the main alliance killed me at like 3am. I’ll always be a Fam Stan for that reason despite how many halitosis having people on here hate them. They let me exist in peace when they could have torn my avi limb from limb whenever they wanted. Social gameplay is needed sometimes. If you can’t be a social game player that’s your fault Thanks FAM

I finally got the full Royale experience, and my overall take is Bagel is absolutely right and there needs changes that benefit the ones of us that work 40 hours a week. Like you truly have to be the best social player OR stay online 247 to survive. But overall, i had a blast and it's by far my favorite game mode here. Thank you Sin! Anyway.. Early Hours, i got to work Tuesday morning and noticed i made it into Royale, most of the game was still asleep so i went on a loot spree and was STACKED within the first 3 hours of the game. I stayed in squares alone or with people who were inactive only. The first 8 or so players that died had nothing to do with me, but the first day was rather slow. I made a pack with GeminiFoxx before they went to bed and woke up to them bombed to death so i was basically alone again. The next day, i continued to hunt loot down while socializing, like i swear this was the most social i ever was in a game before. I felt safe with everyone, no one was after me. The next 15 are killed (mostly by NaughtyNacho & Christos), i was finally asked to participate in the killing by NaughtyNacho and we bombed TateMcRae, Gregoriok, arrascaeta. Tate had escaped, but i seen her in a square a few minutes later and told NaughtyNacho who ended her soon after. After this, the game started to quiet down and i spent ALOT of time with Katherinee_ , we eventually shot out Auralevant for 21st. This is when i was added into an alliance with lish , hwest14 , Christos, Justini, and NaughtyNacho. Immediately, Justini and lish go to town and take out big threats tide, CasinoCheese, & Aries . I felt so bad to hear Aries get slaughtered :(. This is when Batya starved and i got credited the kill because i shot them day 1 lol. Justini and lish were still wreaking havoc when BIGBRYY99 came with the bombs, slaughtering our alliance lol. This took out hwest14 until NaughtyNacho finally killed them. I ran from the bombs and isolated myself from everyone because i was out of stamina.. MessyJ the main villain of this season proceeds to attack Justini, then comes bomb the hell out of me, to go back to Justini and kill him & Christos. So now we are at final 9 and half the alliance is dead. lish & Nacho are frustrated with me because im useless as hell in square D2 (NO STAMINA). But truthfully, i was safe with everyone so not attacking in this part of the game is probably the reason i lived as long as i did. lish proceeds to take out austin and shrimp, another two allies i was supposed to be against. This is when MessyJ returns to me and i immediately blast him with 42 arrows, 10 kunais, and beat him in a fight, he proceeds to get away with like 2 health?!?! I spend the next 2 hours EXHAUSTED staring at my screen, realizing id have to go to bed before this ends. and thats it.. i wake up to see i got 3rd place. lmfao. My only enemy in the entire game was MessyJ and if i had refused to waste my ammo on him... NAH I STILL WOULDVE LOST BECAUSE I NEED SLEEP LIKE?! anyway i had a blast and look forward to torturing myself again!

I apologize in advance if this post is long and messy (no pun intended) but I have a lot to say. Some people have reached out to me to check if I was okay and I truly appreciate that. Some have wanted to reach out to find out what happened and besides two posts that I read and a message in our Klique Discord server I don't know much more. I was playing Royale when it happened and got my highest placing (4th). Today I worked all day and have had other things going on these past few days so I haven't really processed everything. Has that ever happened to you? Like a delayed response? We met back in October in this Frenzy, https://kovaze.com/frenzy.php?gameid=2511, she was inactive that game, then we played again and spoke in another game https://kovaze.com/frenzy.php?gameid=2578 Since then we have played a lot of games together and messaged back and forth a lot. I try to not be a rude person so I would always reply. I never asked her age (i'm a gentleman and it's rude to ask a lady her age). She enjoyed being gifted and I enjoy playing and winning games so it was a perfect combo. We haven't been as close as of late because sometimes I would log on to 15-20 messages and after a while it did become a bit overwhelming so I stopped responding to everything. Everyone is here for a different reason and I use this as a distraction sometimes. I am free to comment on posts and post what I want in games and she would notice it and I would get a message about it. It became a bit much and I blocked her over it and then she would message other people to message me so I ended up unblocking her and she would message me and I wouldn't respond all the time. :/ If anyone wants to talk to me they can message me on Discord (it's on my profile) or through messages on the site and I will respond. They say that "There are three sides to every story: your side, my side, and the truth," well this is my side and the truth from what I remember of the past 4 and a half months. I do want to close this chapter of my time here and move on and be disassociated. If anyone wants to gift me diamonds for a name change that will be really appreciated. The only reason I hesitate change my name is because I made a post a month ago https://kovaze.com/blog/76612 and 92.9% of you said not to. Some people have changed names and I don't know who they are and vote them out of a game and gotten blocked over it. Also I hate change and starting over but sometimes it's necessary. Forward is the motion. That is all.

With all the recent things coming to light and just also due to the overwhelming toxicity of a lot of the userbase I have decided to step away from the community and Kovaze to focus on bettering myself, protecting my peace and just for the sake of my mental health. There are a lot of really mean people on the website that suck the fun out of it and while not everyone here is like that it's just not an environment I see myself flourishing in or wanting to really be apart of anymore. I find that when I hang around the site for too long that I start regressing into old mind frames where I was in a really dark place, and when there was no website I was doing really well on an upward trajectory. On Tengaged, I felt very excluded from the community with the exception of my ride or die, kasey2011, who is not apart of this website, and felt like an outcast for most of my 12 years on the site, it wasn't until the tail end of that experience that I started to find my footing socially and branch out, but outside of that I felt like I largely did not belong there. There were a couple days this past week where I didn't even want to get out of bed because I was so depressed and I just laid down for the entire day, got nothing done, had stress headaches and just feeling overall unwell. There is not much going on here that is constructive to a healthy lifestyle in my opinion, so I just wanted to say a formal goodbye and that I hope that the atmosphere around here changes for everyone here, and for anyone in the future that comes into the community. There is a lot of potential here, I just don't think there's much potential for me. There are a few people I truly am glad to have found that I will be keeping in contact with but I don't see myself coming back, honestly. Thank you for everything and for the good memories in spite of the bad. I think this is the beginning of a better, brighter chapter in my story. I wish nothing but the best for everyone and their lives and personal endeavors. <3 I love you guys <3 Space diamonds KBeastW RandyBandy justablip Fire RickGrimes babygirl91 Kara Katie21 snabring M2thamax ohEMgee death_metal Daleariel JessieKowalski Dream Vitor MarieEve Graf Justini Sin

Rebranding to respond to me on HERE IS SO FUCKING TOUGH, LMAO I'VE MET HIM AND HIS FIANCE LIKE A MILLION TIMES I FEEL, EVEN WENT TO ATLANTA TO EAT UP A TOURNAMENT WITH HIS FINACE. I forget I have his direct cell-phone line, I will start texting him soon,

IT WAS LITERALLY PROMISED LOL ITS BEEN LIKE OVER A MONTH SIN

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My new Kovaze best friend. I had to fire the last one

tomorrow i will be cherishing jadennator1 melanie lolicapolica and marwane in my arms as we meet up to play races together. i am hoping i pick up many tips on how to improve <3

He gets daze to join him in arena so he can be carried to the end for points. I blocked him again.

of my picture this week on #DNTM I have let myself down and if i survive i promise to work harder <\3 It’s been an adjustment since i lost my ginger hair

Being on the front page of some users pages truly means the world to me 🥰❤️ Having met and being able to talk to so many amazing and kind souls has made my life so much sweeter. I truly can’t thank you all enough ❤️ Hugs you all sm 🫂