I literally just made a blog last night about how I’m scared my mom is going to die from drugs or her mental health. This morning I found her after she overdosed. I had to call 911. I had to watch them Narcan her. And now I’m just sitting here waiting to see what happens. It doesn’t even feel real. Like how do you go from saying your biggest fear out loud to living it the next morning?

i’ve been having such a hard few days and i’m so emotionally checked out of everything right now like i had all this shit i was gonna do after work to be productive but now i got off early and im probably just gonna nap until like midnight bc i don’t wanna deal with being awake

you associate me with and I'll do the same for you! could be a person, a game, an event, whatever!! Smores - RACE! SirVivor - LMFAOOO wait I completely forgot about that, I would have to say the same. either that or seeing you in ORGs(?) brookie - i associate you with an absurd sense of humor and your iconic blogs bunderscore - OCTAVIA. salmaan1 - the gals. :) davit - hunger on TG!!! spartagow - i fear i do not know you.... :( i also dont know what your comment means jskldfjd kai_what - skype fights LMFAO melanie - i def associate you with the same, but if i'm being specific probably tisha!!! mrschloekaycecci - your documented races. or honestly, the whole series dumblonde - clickbait. #babyboo mittens - i associate u with my lover joeburrow... jtee - first of all.. shut up.. second of all.. THAT IS SO SWEET! i associate you with royale because youre insane jadennator1 - tbh ive always just associated you with the cool girl aesthetic... but also the famcil and KPOP duh jake - probably that group game we met in, but also i associate u with january 25th. joeburrow - joe burrow. bellamy. whittaker. cherry - BRIGHT red hair, any time i see it even irl i think of miss delicious nenalala - shops or arena diva yawnha - a nap bc of your username...... daze - RACE of COURSE. biggest beast on here glitter - i cannot believe ur TITO i fully thought u were a woman... but that aside i associate u with the obvious, burritos. marieeve - shops and designs!! desh - GORGEOUS makeup and ariana of course hwest14 - oh well yes all of the things youve listed.. but also southern charm in general! and envious :-) nick - singing and #tundra from TG!!!!! melodrama - tg hunger and your CHAOTIC gameplay in SH..

Can this person Kiss stop talk about my pussy? My pussy is perfect and clean, I dont have any issue with It, so please stop talk bad things about it #BeautyPussyIsReal #BeautyPussyIsClean

PREVIOUSLY ON AMANDASINGS BIG BROTHER... The houseguests were shocked to learn that only 9 of the potential 12 eviction votes counted this week, which resulted in a surprising unanimous 9-0 vote to evict Sobriquet. Shortly after Sob's heart-wrenching eviction, the Houseguests were instructed to open boxes numbered 1-14. The boxes sprayed out PINK and PURPLE paint onto the houseguests. The Houseguests with PINK paint would remain downstairs while the Houseguests with PURPLE paint moved upstairs. Shortly after, the doors to the stairs LOCKED. And the Houseguests were informed that ONE MEMBER OF EACH FLOOR would be evicted this week. The Houseguests are currently competing in their fourth HOH Competition, RANKED RIGHT, where they must rank the members of the other house based on whom they want to win HOH. Who will rise to power in each HOUSE, and how will ANGIEKSTAN'S BOX impact these split houses? Find out THIS WEEK ON AMANDASINGS BIG BROTHER!!! #ASBB1 THE PURPLE FLOOR: Upstairs Dimitra Biancabae Kodua VenusVafa Lolicapolica Dakota MrsChloeKayCecci THE PINK FLOOR: Downstairs Metropolis Torimarie Cleiton14 Itsamodernlife SummerMariah Elphaba and Glinda Envious FOLLOW ALONG IN THE VIEWER'S LOUNGE: https://discord.gg/Cw7skKHp AND VOTE FOR ANGIE'S BOX: https://kovaze.com/blog/108209

WHO EVICTED ME , I S2G I WILL MAKE YOUR LIFE HELL IN EVERY GAME I SEE YOU IN. I KNOW WHO YOU ARE SO BEWARE YOU UGLY FUCKERS. EDIT: this doesn't include glitter marquis justini tayvie

Wednesday, I woke up with my left side of my face being swollen and then today I wake up to my whole face being swollen and a burning sensation (update on that is swelling has gone down but the burning sensation has not left :/). Doc gave me some meds to help with that and then also diagnosed me with anxiety and gave me anxiety meds so now I shall be mellow. I knew I wasn't crazy with anxiety taking over me sobs, glad I'm getting some help though :) IDK why I'm blogging it here but anyways be nice to me pls <3

knowuh - we played few games together but idk anything about u so its neutral i dont have an opinion really marieeve - same as knowuh lmao but i do like your designs ricardogv - in our royale i thought u were ok but then i noticed your constant bitching about ppl in royale and u mentioning sleeping during the game as if youre better than the rest. i thought its annoying af spartagow - i remember your username from tg i think but idk anything about u so no opinion really chris - bitch why you scared.. love you down!!! i think you’re very funny!!!! and i love whenever we are on call together its always a great time angiekstan - we like never talked outside games but i love playing with u i think you’re hilarious kai_what - when i first met u i really liked you but during the last month i heard some weird things about u so idk how i feel anymore bim - literally my first time seeing u on here sirvivor - i gasped when i found out who u were lmao. we were always fine on tengaged never really close but yeah i dont have anything bad to say about you. most my tg memories are gone so i dont really rememebr your personality and we havent really interacted on kovaze so idk what else to say yawnha - once again we never really interacted so i dont have an opinion

Is getting voted out in a frenzy on a group call full of a bunch of my friends and someone flipped and lied about their vote, and then everyone went on a rampage trying to find out who did it, and then the friend group split up and went their own ways after that night. It broke my heart To this day, nobody has owned it. It hurts.

After Gabs was evicted by a vote of 9-4 against Metropolis, the houseguests participated in the FIND MY FRIENDS HOH competition. The houseguests had to locate 4 people on my friends list from a number 1-96 in the fastest time. Itsamodernlife blew the rest of the cast out of the water, completing the challenge in only 25 seconds, and was crowned HOH. Itsamodernlife made straightforward nominations: Dakota as a response to his nomination last week, and Kodua, his former rival from a previous (prod member) benopolis org. In the BRANTSTEELE BEATDOWN POV competition, the houseguests played an interactive BB Brantsteele as themselves. Biancabae and Kodua both WON their brantsteeles, but it was Kodua who won by a larger margin and claimed the POWER OF VETO. Itsamodernlife vowed to “make a statement” with his replacement nominee. In a shock to most of the house, Modern named SOBRIQUET as the replacement nominee. In AngieKStan’s Box, Kodua was DENIED access. This unleashed a Punishment. BUT THAT’S NOT ALL….. Earlier in the week, the houseguests were informed that next week would bring a twist that would CHANGE THE GAME forever. The houseguests have been presented with FOURTEEN boxes. They each must claim a box. This is the most important decision they have made in this game. WHO WILL BE EVICTED: Dakota or SOBRIQUET? And what will this GAME CHANGING twist bring to the houseguests next week? FIND OUT….. TONIGHT…… ON AMANDASINGS BIG BROTHER! #ASBB1

TECHNICAL DIFFICULTIES FIXED! Sorry divas just act like you never saw the one from before. Anywho voting is open for Angie’s Box. Quick Poll So get those votes in NOW and not later. https://strawpoll.com/xVg71r6bQyr

My mom has needed psychiatric help for years and still refuses to acknowledge how serious things are. Tonight she got physical with my dad and tried to leave the house naked during an episode, and it was just… a lot. Moments like that don’t really leave you. I feel like I’ve already accepted that I might lose her one way or another, whether that’s to drugs or her mental health. And somehow, it’s not getting easier to deal with. If anything, it’s getting harder as time goes on. There are times I want to just cut her off until she gets the help she needs, because it’s exhausting and honestly overwhelming. But she doesn’t really have anyone else, and I have this constant fear that if I step away, she’ll end up dead. My sister already made that choice, and I get why she did, but I don’t know if I can. It’s just a really shitty place to be in. Caring about someone who won’t help themselves, while also trying to not let it destroy you.

I enjoyed a lot this 10 last games and learned a lot I meet a incredible persons that i will never forget See you in a weeks ty for all my babies Rafo Cristi Peach Legend Airi sweetheart naughtynacho itsamodernlife Akshar Fancy Felicity Davit Jaded Christos axel high shrimp Tide dailyicon coldreactor kitkat2921 hwest14 VenusVafa glaceon Katherinee_ and a lot more Good luck in your futures games <33

accepted first offer of 113k. Rebranding only had inspire and accepted 113k.........2 trains.....431k...i want a breakdown of this so bad I would love to see it. Team 9 - Dakota & Rebranding: 431731 Team 1 - Luxray & RobbieRIOT: 1320

when people will literally sit on a silent call and talk the ENTIRE time? and i dont mean in a bad way, but they will just happily have a conversation by themselves with minimal responses barely taking a second to breathe? i first noticed this with MrsChloeKayCecci and recently HausOfKimchi like i have never in my life seen people have the talent to have an entire conversation alone, iconic and i love it because i enjoy just sitting and listening so to have them just carry on the convo without me even needing to put in effort is amazing.

After like a million tries, I FINALLY got my first race win! Thanks for dragging me through the first couple rounds melanie but we really did that