I have been thinking about making this blog for literally years but just never did because of whatever reason. For a while I just didn’t want it to be connected to me but idrgaf anymore and I think making it could do some good for this community so I am. I know a lot of people won’t even know who these people even are and it happened so long ago that most won’t care but if it helps even one person it’s worth it! SORRY ITS SO LONG THERES JUST A LOT, and honestly it could be longer but I don’t want to dilute the point.
Anyways, it all starts back in the big 2013. I was 15 (!) and a very typical teenage boy, I liked attention from girls and was pretty flirtatious. I don’t really remember how it started, but at some point the user Jenzie (Who was 20) and I started talking. I knew she was dating another user, Zakisaboss, who will also be a part of this story later, but I didn’t really care because I thought she was hot and WAS 15 (!).
Eventually we start flirting pretty heavily and in the moment I’m just like really excited about it because this older pretty woman is interested in me. Before things REALLY pick up, though, she tells me I need to download kik. Now kik was an app that allowed a lot of anonymity and had almost no moderation, so you can imagine what it was used for. Jenzie knew this and knew it would be much easier to get away with what she was doing on this app. She was honestly a master of manipulation and knew exactly how to play with your emotions and mind to get you to do what she wanted.
So after all that happens, I’m added to this chat called the millz. For the unaware, this chat was a big deal back then. A lot of prestige and anyone in the chat is like “cool” I guess idk it was weird tg was weird. Jenzie is the leader of this chat and they basically all suck her toes all day every day. But at the time I’m just so happy to be included, so I’m pretty unaware of the weirdness of the situation. They are very nice to be to begin with and I get a lot of messages from people I don’t know. Jenzie gives them my Snapchat (we also… talked… there) and I start getting random snaps from these like 20-30 year old men who are clearly thirsty as fuck. A few send things I will truly never forget, completely unsolicited. I’m obviously just sat there uncomfortable as fuck, but I just told myself to brush it off because I wanted to be included in this group. So I just ignore it.
During all this, Jenzie and Zak are on the rocks. This is one of the biggest reasons she pursued me, as they had some weird shit where they’d always go after other people (usually minors) to make the other jealous. It was truly bizarre and I know of at least 5 others (who I won’t name) who have similar stories to mine. Anyways, she starts telling me to make blogs about her and gift her and send her msgs about how stupid zak is for “cheating” (??), and of course I do because I’m deep in it now. Like I did truly believe she liked me, embarrassing! After that, Zak goes fucking nuclear and starts sending me death threats and other insane shit that really freaks me out. I tell Jenzie (very smart I know) and she just laughs and says “oh he’s just like that”…????? After that, Jenzie would message me from time to time and I was always willing to …. Talk… I found out eventually that she was basically messaging me whenever things were going bad with Zak.
A few weeks after that, Jenzie messages me to “stop being weird” and stop sending her flirty messages. I was sad about this obviously, but it did at least wake me up a bit. Unfortunately it was too late! I was initially kicked from the Millz, and one of my other friends who was in the chat (not one of the weird mf who sent me unsolicited nudes) tells me Jenzie has sent a bunch of my messages to the group for them to laugh at. I get mad ofc and message her, and she then adds me back to the group. They then start bullying me (i was FIFTEEN) and degrading me for hours. I was pretty affected by this, even as someone who has pretty thick skin most of the time. Jenzie then messages me that she will leak my nudes if I tell anyone about anything, and obviously at that age I’m not risking that. I left the group but I am sure they continued after.
I learn shortly after that the reason for her switch up was because her and Zak got back together. So this was proof for me that she was just completely using me the entire time, and I know she did this to plenty of others as well. I also know that the Millz regularly exchanged the nudes of minors between them (not directly in the chat, but privately) and I thank my lucky stars every day that mine never leaked to the public like others did.
One last thing I wanted to add was that while this was happening, Jenzie knew I was close with a few other girls (again, not gonna name them). She would constantly go after them and bully them, both publicly and in the Millz. I know this was a very common theme with her, and I think most of the girls on tg were at one point or another bullied by her, usually when she was trying to prey on one of their male friends.
It is still insane to me that stuff like that happened right under the noses of the entire site, and they were still hailed as the gods of tengaged. It just shows how little people gave a fuck at the time and how evil people can take advantage of situations like that.
Now, I do think Kovaze is a much safer space and people do a good job of looking out for others, but stuff like this still happens. It is everyone’s job to be on the look out for wack jobs who are looking to take advantage of others. So if you see signs (there were SO many with jenzie and the millz that people just ignored) keep digging into it.
I think it’s also important to note that ANYONE could be a predator. I don’t think anyone would’ve expected Jenzie, who was widely known as one of the more attractive girls on the site, was one, but she was. So if you hear shit about your friends and automatically go “well they’d never do that” maybe reconsider. I’m not saying you need to fully believe whatever you hear, but at least hear the person out.
Also, anyone can be a victim!! It took me a long time to realize I was one, and even longer to write this. Even though I don’t feel especially fucked up by the events, I am obviously embarrassed and not proud of what happened. Who knows how many others just don’t feel comfortable enough to come out with it or feel like they were just a stupid teenager who got caught up in weird shit.
So uhhhh I guess that’s it! Sorry for the university thesis and thank you for reading!
Sin
