Genuinely Upset

I honestly try to be loyal and honest with people when i agree to work with them in games but i am always, always the first person they turn on when the chance comes. I try as much as i am socially able to be part of "groups" and create myself allies but 95% of people are fake. It's not a nice experience and it absolutely starts to feel personal when you're apparently dispensable over and over again. Don't worry, before you all come at me, i know, it's a gaming website- but i don't think it's wrong to want to meet genuine and respectful people. Too many of you act in a way you would never in day to day life; quite hard for neurodiverse people to get their head around that. Perhaps, i shall hang about and do some daily spins but stay out of games; i don't want to win enough to hurt others or keep being used as a scapegoat.